新年快乐

新年快乐，恭喜发财！

希望大家今年都能行大运！

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I should have believed in myself.
I should have trusted myself.

I should have. It's too late now.

Damage done cannot be undone.
Scars take time to heal. A long long time.

Trying...

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."

What a quote to see the first thing when I log on to net today when I was feeling so hopeless of my condition.

I will keep on trying. Try different doctors and different medicines. One day I will overcome it!

Snowing

It's snowing here again and this time it's a "country-wide" snow with all areas covered with white snow. Even flights are cancelled due to heavy snow in London. Snowing when winter is nearly over and spring is coming seems a bit odd.. But blame it on the global warming that's causing all the weather changes.

Went to see doctor for the 4th time today. And to be exact, I went to see two different doctors today, so that makes the 4th and 5th doctor visit? Called sister when I was on the way to the pharmacy because I was just simply indulging in my own self-pity. But I really think I'm very ke lian.

1. Walk 20 minutes in the freezing weather to the medical centre to see the first doctor.
2. Walk 15 minutes to the nearest pharmacy in school. But no medicine bought because they don't have them there.
3. Walk 30 minutes to the pharmacy in town to get my medicine. (Called sister to talk and tell her how freaking cold it was outside.)
4. Realised my medicine wasn't the one I expected it to be.
5. Asked for a refund and only took the other two kinds of medicine. Total cost: 13 pounds
6. The first doctor put me in disbelief because of the wrong medicine he prescribed to me.
7. Went to a second doctor in town. 5 minutes walk.
8. Asked the doctor when my skin will be okay.. Ans is "depends, and come back to see me five days later".
9. Finish seeing the doctor and took back alot alot alot of medicine. Total cost: 51 pounds
*puke* So damn expensive!
10. Next, went to ATM to fill up my broken pocket again, then shop aroun and saw my canvas in stock again. But was carrying to many thing to buy anymore. *Arrgghh wasted!*
11. Walk back home with my freezing feet - 20 minutes.

What a day.

Finally...

I've finally finished my Semester one exams!

But Semester two is starting next week. Which means that this viscous cycle is going to start again. And preparation for next week's lecture starts immediately after exams.. Oh my.. When will I ever get to rest and do my painting??

This exam isn't like any exam i've been through. Somehow I felt this is the worst. First, all papers are closed book. Next, the English Education of the Cambridge style surfaces, and this means tons and tons of memorising. Lastly, the most important is my long month-old suffering from an unknown disease that is causing all kinds of irritation and allergy on my skin. *Faint* Really felt like dying when I was having paper the next day morning at 9 and couldn't sleep till 5 because the unknown virus has triggered all my allergic glands at full blown. That is beside the trouble of having to go to the medical centre for 3 times before my papers to see the doctor and having to wait hours because of the inefficiency and slow processing time there. Really felt so wu nai and hopeless during that time.

Well, now the exam is over, but the unknown poison in my body hasn't leave. Will it leave by this week so I can start my Semester with a fresh beginning? I really hope so... and I am really praying for it to be over.

Simple yet complicated.