My thoughts during lunch time

Wanted to post on alot of other activities before writing, but I guess I will now write (and complain) first and leave the activities to a later time.

Things aren't getting better after the Summer holidays and my research sucks a big time. And I am totally lost. It's a torturing slow process that I am beginning to hate and wonder why I like it in the first place. So many people I've met recently told me how tormenting yet fast these 3 or 4 years will pass. Probably I thought things are simpler, probably I am just overestimating what I can do. Sucks. Everything seems to be in a mess now and I just came back from another lousy meeting, sitting at my little desk in the office waiting for the next seminar. Time just seems to be passing day by day and I seemed to be doing work almost everyday, but where's the output? I can't see ANY at all. NO OUTPUT. NO USEFUL OUTPUT. This isn't about inefficient anymore, it's about ineffective and getting it wrong all the time!!!

AARRGGHHhhhhhhh.........